Ahh life. You keep my soul thirsty.

At the moment, you only have right now. And it's gone. The moment is gone. But you have a new moment right now, again. And it's gone, in a split second. You know what I mean? Okay this blog will be a bit different. I'm going to explain to you what most of my thoughts look like. How I think about things that I talk about in all of these blog posts. Ideas don't just come in their final version. It's millions of little thoughts, memories, predictions, feelings and blank spaces before I understand what I actually think. Does that make sense to you? So I was thinking about my exsistence. How I always only exist in one short time period. A time period so short, it's not even measurable, I think. So when people say you only have right now, they are right. Not now, as saying "today", but like "right now". You only have right right right now. You don't have the past, you don't have the future. You don't exist in your past anymore, and you don't exist in your future yet. But you do now. Ah, and the moment is gone. When you read the word "gone" just now - well, the moment is over. You don't exist in that moment anymore, you are never getting it back again. Gone. If I'm right - the universe, all the people you know and don't know, all of the animals, all of the plants, sky, rivers, material things,... everything exists right now, too. There's no other option, because nothing can exist in the past or the future, right? So everything you see and don't see, feel and don't feel, know and don't know, everyting exists right now in this one shortest moment with you. You follow? What I find strange is how everything can function so perfect? Things have purpose just because of the continuinity of meanings in the moment of exsistance, that build a time period. But they mean nothing by itself in that exact moment of existing. Things function through that little pieces of time, but how? If everything exists just in that same moment, how can things react one to another? So if we could freeze time and everything would stop, looking at every single thing nothing would make any sense. You create your thoughts with time, making connections of information you have, and you are able to keep that thought and work around it. But what is a thought in that smallest moment? It can't be anything you create in your head because of memory, it's just a thought, kind of becoming a thought. And it's the same when we talk. If you could just catch your voice in the moment, there would be no words. Just noise. And it's the same with everything you can think of. Everything you do in your actual momentary existence, makes no sense. So how can we talk and travel through time se easily? How is it possible for our brain to pretend we exsist for more than just a blink of an eye? Because we do think that. But it's impossible. So how on Earth can we have our lives, communicating to people, how can we even think? How can we remember things, how is it possible that time frames stay in our brain? And information, how can they form thoughts? A lot of times, I get a feeling I'm bigger than myself. I'm not kidding, it's a funny feeling. Well not funny. It's a majestic feeling, beyond anything you can imagine. I feel like I'm everything in the moment, like I'm the whole world, like I'm the universe. I don't feel my body, I just feel my existence. Oh that is so hard to explain. It's an interesting feeling because you feel like you are not where you are. You are everywhere, in everything around you. Because in the smallest time unit we are all one. We all create everything. There's no other way of explaining it. Everything around us exists and creates our reality, while we exist in the same exact moment and create that same reality to everything around us. Don't lose me now! The only way for everything there is in us and around us and above us and below us - to function, is that we must all be one. I don't see another explanation. We are the same energy (existence), just in different bodies and shapes and whatever. When a baby is born, how did it start? It was in his cells all the time. Because is everywhere, in you and all around you. We are life. We are that strange thing no one knows how to explain. Not even scientists. We are pure existence. When you shut down all of your thoughts, everything you know and everything that occupies your mind, when you feel the wind on your face and air in your lungs, you can feel it. It's real. You don't detect time period you're in, you don't feel the space around you. You are time, you are the space around you. You are the wind. If your mind didn't function, your head would be empty, nothing. Does it mean you don't exist? No, but you can only exist in what you know and understand. If your brain could feel other people's feeling, you would exist in them too, right? If you were able to feel what wind through tree crochet feels like, you could be a tree, right? I hope you follow this, I try to explain but ahh it's so hard. But because you can only feel and use your body, you think that is all you are. It's not true, it's just everything you are able to understand. But you are so much more, you are one with everything that exist. I'm so sure. There is no time, there is no space, there is no friendships. There are just interactions and thoughts, day by day, every day from the begining, every split second you must re-create everything you are and everything you know. Because nothing can exist in the past and in the future. Yes, you are in that place and time, but just because you think so. You can only be what you think. You can only have a world around you the way your brain hallucinates it. Imagine not knowing anything that you know. Not having any information. So when you take away your physical abilities of perception, what are you? If you can concentrate, try to take away your body. Be left with just your mind. Not head and a brain. Just your mind. It's all you are. You are a thought, you are an idea. You are a feeling. Try to imagine existence like something that is not just in you. Try to think of it as something there just is. Around you, through you, in you. Everywhere. You are existence. When first atoms came into being in the early universe, all over the universe those atoms lumped together under gravity until the pressure and temperature became so high that the hydrogen atoms fused together to form heavier elements. The reaction is nuclear fusion. Many stars die as a supernova, without doubt the most violent explosions in the universe. The supernova which was just a single star becomes as bright as the complete galaxy it's part of. During the supernova explosion all the elements are thrown into space. So everything the earth consists of comes from such an exploding star. And the next step is life. You. Stop acting so small, you are the universe in estatic motion.

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